Codefreespirit

Ugh. I’m so not s goal oriented person, but in order to make a new start in my new state and get my website going, I’m making it a goal to draw something on paper every week. Just like I kinda used to do at my favorite sushi place. Yes, you heard it here first. John has made a goal. Along with my goal of going van life by this summer, we’ll see how it goes. If I can do this for a full month, my webstore may be ready to go by June or July. I have no idea if I can pull off my idea, but it is kinda nice to be drawing consistently again. All the old demons are coming up. I’m doing my best to fight em off.

These plans for the future go round in my head. I can’t convince myself my work, myself is worthy of doing art for a living. Or anything with creative stuff. I have this idea to expand my website. I just am lost a bit. I’m not a money minded person. I want to put ‘value’ in the world, but just not sure what I do is valuable. End of journal. Peace, my friends.

Okay, so I've made my project to update my site and my deviant art gallery, and I can't get my version of Photoshop to work.  Actually, I can't get my old iBook to work.  The updating may be on hiatus until I can afford a version for my MacBook.  However, I am still diligently toiling away on my latest script to turn into a graphic novel.  Hopefully by the end of the year!

Just a heads up to anyone following my lack of new work.  I'll be revamping my web identity soon and posting some newer stuff.  I've even got my sights set on trying some graphic novels and such.  Please don't give up on me yet.  I've still got a few tricks left.

In my last journal entry, I wrote that I developed rheumatoid arthritis, but the lab results are finally in, and it turns out that I do not have rheumatoid arthritis.  That's the good news, the bad news is that the pain I'm experiencing is gout spreading through me.  I already knew I had gout, but until now, it had only struck my toes.

After living with gout for several years now, I'm aware that I can manage it with my diet.  I've singled out most of the foods that cause flare-ups, and I've got some good guesses as to the culprits behind these latest pains.  Although gout is known to suddenly flare-up for no reason.

In a couple months, I'm hoping to be back to a fairly healthy state, mobile and able to hold a pen or pencil for more than a few minutes without trembling.

I want to thank those of you who offered your support through this time.  May you be blessed with the same kindness throughout your life.

Now, back to figuring out how to pay all these doctor bills.